Tuesday, September 28, 2010

My mom is having another surgery today; I am exhausted.  This time it's her back.  I have been up since 6am and have an extremely long day.  I just want her to be ok.

Sunday, September 26, 2010

My New Favorite

I was bumming around the internet and found a man that is adoreable, a man that is smart and a man that is creative.  The man's name is Kiel Mead and his website is here.  It's nothing seriously new but it is definitely fun, hip and cool!
Your Welcome!
XOXO,
Alexandra

Friday, September 24, 2010

Update

Dear Everyone,
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XOXO,
Alexandra

Friday, September 17, 2010

Teeth

Teeth are weird.  They are such high-maintenance items.  My Mom is having dental surgery #2 right now and I am in the library waiting for her to be done.  Her first surgery was a MONSTER!  The dentist removed ALL of her teeth and shaved her top & bottom jaw bone down and tied it all up with 87 stitches!  Her recovery period was long and she got 2 infections. 
I thought after my Dad died that I would be more aware and have a heightened level of conscienceness when it came to my Mom aging but I still find myself getting aggrivated that she is not back to being 100%.  We think of our parents as our eternal flames, and in a way they are.  But they're aging process is hard.  At moments our roles are reversed and I am the care taker, the parent, making sure she rinses her mouth out and follows the doctors orders.  Some days she is SUPER annoyed with me because she is the parent and does not want to feel old and that she is not capable of taking care of herself.  Some days she is just depressed because she doesn't have teeth and she is not recovering as quickly as she wants to.  All in all this has been a lesson of human behavior.  I love my Mom so much, she is such an amazing woman that always put the five us first.  In some ways, that way of living has caught up to her.  I want to much for this period of her life to be filled with relaxed, wonderful, happy moments but unfortunately I am not in control of that. 
XOXO!

Saturday, September 11, 2010

High School Anthems

Being back in my hometown has me reviewing my past daily.  Music has and always will be such a big part of my life and my column is a good way to get out all of the music I geek out on in my head.  I want to know what your favorite High School Anthems are. 
Comment on my column here:
http://www.examiner.com/rock-music-in-dallas/high-school-anthem-outsider-by-the-ramones

And I just might write about it!
Oh and if you haven't subscribed to my column, please do!  It's absolutely FREE and I promise it will be interesting!
Much love,
Alexandra

Never Forget

My thoughts are with you!
XOXO,
Alexandra

Say What!?!?!?!

From CNN Breaking News email, "The Rev. Terry Jones says he has decided to cancel Quran burning -- "not today, not ever.""
I want everyone, Christian, Catholic, Orthodox, Jew, whatever and take a moment and breath.  Now, what they hell is wrong with you people!  America was founded by people seeking refuge from religious persecution and burning the Quran is tolerated, even if it was for just a mere moment of thought.  Not all Muslims are here to destroy America.  If that were the case, we would have a full fledged war on our hands on BOTH American soil and in whatever prodominant Muslim country we are currently NOT occupying. 
I am very proud that a man of the cloth, Rev. Terry Jones (if you even deserve that fucking title) has decided not to burn a religious book,  but if you expect anything from any decent, moderately intelligent human being you have got to be dreaming. The fact that you even have a podium is a gift, how you use it is a disgrace.  You should be ashamed of yourself!  Anyone who continues to follow this moron is a moron themselves.

Friday, September 3, 2010

After Twelve Years

After twelve years in a finance career that I never wanted, I realized something quite profound in 16 months of unemployment.  I realized that I thought I wanted a career and as it turns out, I just wanted paychecks.  So now I work at a counter in a "restaurant" for a great guy and get talked down to on a daily basis while I am trying to become an established writer.  I work at a "restaurant" that has no waiters and with customers that do not tip while living on a wage that is less than  my first job in LA. 
I received more respect with a job that made me miserable, at a level and in a field that most acheive with degrees and CPA's and that I acheived with absolutely no schooling.  Now with the freedom of creativty and a chance to try something without the fear of failing, but more of fear of never trying, I am treated with disrespect because I don't follow your rules.
These are some fucked up times. 
I feel like giving up multiple times in the day, today more than other days.  Today I feel like ripping the danglers off of the douche bag that told me today that "I am not worth a tip!" or the other douche who waived his hands in my face to shoo me away because I was told to charge him for his extra sides.  A note to the two separate douche bags: Douche Bag 1: if your hair has more product in it than mine, there is something wrong and to Douche Bag 2: tribal tattoo's were never cool; it's just stupid to wear a shirt to show them off.  But I digress, giving up does nothing and will only give me more work when I finally realize that I should never had given up.  I just want a release.  I want to go to a dark bar with my friends and smoke a pack of cigarettes and drink some Jack Daniels and listen to some good rock n roll on the juke box and dance and relax and feel like I am in my skin again and instead of living a life that I didn't sign up for.  I didn't sign up for this.  I don't want people to think they can speak to me however they chose because I don't live my life the same way or in the same order as you.  You all have no idea how truly different I am from all of you.  I am a liberal that believes two people that are in love deserve the right to be married no matter of their sexual orientation.  I believe that if you want to believe in a God that is your choice but know that not believing in God is ok too.  I believe that Obama is a great man but will never be received as a great President because of his skin color/religion. 
Um, I believe in so much more but my sleeping pill has totally kicked in and I shouldn't write anymore until this wears off.
XOXO-Alexandra
TO BE CONTINUED....................